I’m wearing pants today that I haven’t been able to wear in YEARS. Actual years.
Once upon a time they were my favorite work pants, but then I got too fat for them and I haven’t really had a favorite pair of work pants since. It’s a terribly sad story, isn’t it?
I read something a couple of months ago that said your brain has as hard of a time losing weight as your body does and I thought that was silly because, hello, I’ve wanted to be skinnier than I was at any given time for as long as I can remember. But now I’m beginning to think the person who wrote that article might be onto something (and, you know, probably knew what they were talking about). The article talked about brain chemicals and how when your body is used to being a certain size it sort of goes into shock and digs its heels in when you try to change things. So, even though everything about me is healthier than I ever have been, my brain says, “noooooooo! I like being chubby!” That’s rude.
I seem to have hit some weird block, and it isn’t because I can’t do it physically. I think the ol’ brain and I are sabotaging my weight loss. It’s SO DUMB.
I did so well for so long, keeping the “bad” foods out of my house, or keeping things I knew I would only eat in small portions (like dark chocolate — I love it, but can’t do more than two pieces, it’s so rich). Lately though, I’ve been back to buying things I know are bad for me (hello Halloween candy, I love you miniature KitKat bars) and keeping them in my house like a dummy.
It starts a vicious cycle because I get really mad at myself when I do it, but then continue to do it anyway, then feel guilty and want to eat more to make myself feel better. Such a bad plan, and it is getting to that season where there will be so much of it just looking me in the face.
Has anyone else run into this or am I crazy? I know I can get myself back to a goal-oriented mindset and I can overcome this little setback, but it’s frustrating when I know I’m doing it to myself.
But, let’s not forget about the pants! Small victories!
I’m still in the gym on a regular basis, so even though I’ve been eating badly, I’m still working SOME of those calories off. Thank goodness!